Or, why does this week suck, in three parts.
1. School is damn expensive and while it may be overly dramatic I feel like my heart is going to break over this credit card debt due to tuition. Long story short, I am taking classes that earn credit that count towards the degree but I am not officially enrolled (yet) so I don't qualify for financial aid. Hence tuition payments on a credit card. I just feel trapped by the balance and since money doesn't grow on trees all I can do is pay what I can when I can and try not to get overwhelmed. So far, it isn't working. I need to remember the long term goal of having an MA but so far it is little consolation. The only temporary solution I can think of, as my next payment looms, is that I open another credit card that offers a temporary 0% rate for a few months, and charge the tuition to that. See if not having monthly fees on top of the balance helps me breath. Thoughts?
2. Everything feels gray this week. Just...blah. My runs have been meh. My energy is meh. My level of giving a shit about anything at all has been meh. And since I can't put a finger on something specific, I'm just wallowing in the murky meh-ness of it all and hoping next week hurries up. At least I am not anxious or worried about my run this weekend. All 18 miles of it. I'm either actually ready for it, or the meh-ness of everything makes me too gray to care.
3. These just arrived at work and a teeny tiny smile crept on my face. New Kinvaras will have to wait until Tuesday's track workout. Zensah compression sleeves will be on my legs in 3.....2........1......